>If there's a timeline worse than this, I can't imagine it
Political retaliation is neither new nor unexpected. Indeed the level of corruption is still less than, say, Putin's Russia; yet the Russian people carry on with their lives unmolested. Don't be so passionate about electoral politics, for they are not passionate about you.
>My main problem is actually taking steps to open myself to help in the real world.
A healthy acknowledgement of my mortality has helped significantly. Most anxieties are trivial in the grand scheme of things. The people you open up to can only hurt you if you let them. From your postings over the last five years; I am willing to bet that many of your worries are things that you need not be concerned with at all. I do recommend reading the Meditations.